of one of my favorite bloggers on here. She literally writes my thoughts in words I can't put together.

(Blue_summer)

I fight for the things I believe in.  And, well, I’ve always believed in you.

 

And you know, I can’t really tell how long it’s been since you really trusted someone.  I know that you trust me to a certain extent.  Probably more than most people in your life.  But I want you to know one thing: there’s not a damn thing about your past that’d scare me away.  There’s not one single thing you could tell me that would make me care about you any less.

 

I've always defended you.  To anyone and everyone.  I'm not telling you that to make you feel bad.  I'm not telling you that for kicks.  There's no ulterior motive.  I don't mind taking the risk for you.  I don't have a problem throwing myself into the fray.  Because I believe--underneath everything, past that water under the bridge--you're worth it.

 

Now, the rest--where this goes--that's entirely up to you.

 

wow. it was even titled "What I would've said"....which is exactly the effect it had on me when I read it....granted "I would've said" this about 2 years ago... it still rings true.

'How do you keep your heart from shattering after every relationship'
I made a post a while ago about how I thought I could never handle heartbreak. This isn't quite so dramatic but it still hurts. 'No strings attached' just doesn't work. Of course, we don't realize that we've been feeling something until it hurts not having it.
I guess it was an experience that had to happen.

...how the people you called your "best friend" at any given time can become complete strangers?

When do we really find the "forever friends" of our lives?

Today, I ran into somebody I once called my "closest friend" or "best friend," someone I became close to because nobody else would accept her, and she didn't even acknowledge my presence to say a simple "hello, how are you?"

It made me think of all those other people that throughout middle and high school I was close to and thought would be forever friends but turned out not to be. The person I cam across today wasn't even somebody I had thought of, and it was a really short-lived friendship but nevertheless, the sting of "once upon a time" remains.

I mean, i've admitted to myself and others that I get too close too quickly and oftentimes, it does me more harm than good. I'm a people person, I can't help it. Whether it be friends or boys, i simply love too quickly. I put my whole heart into every friendship and when those friendships dont last, I hurt. My breakups in life have come in the form of "fall-outs" with friends. I don't date and then fall in love with boys, my preferred method of heartbreak seems to lie in loving too wholeheartedly and then being disappointed by "best friends."

I suppose it's just a reflection on my priorities in life, or so I've convinced myself. It's tough to control love, in any form. I suppose it's true: those we love most are the ones who hurt us most.

So here's to those 'once-upon-a-time' BFF's, thanks for teaching me about heartache.